There is a GOD.

When Vinny told me last October that he will go backpacking in South America “alone” until December I nearly died. I was very worried, scared & stressed. I couldn’t sleep for many nights. I talked to my friends and some said let him go and some said don’t let him go. So the more I got confused.

I know he is already in the age were I can’t stop him from doing what he wants to do. All I can do is PRAY.

The only thing I asked him was to please stay in a nice hotel so it will be safe. He told me: “how can I meet people Mom if I stay in a 5 star hotel. I have to stay in hostels so I will meet fellow backpackers.” I didn’t know what a hostel is. He told me: “room sharing and common bathroom.” I died again.

I let destiny take it’s course.

When the time came for him to leave I stayed close to my phone. It was going to be my only connection to him.

On my first night in Vienna I texted him around 4am (Vienna time) cos I was jet lagging. “Where are you na?” He replied: “Ethiopia.” Bigla akong na pa tayo, lumuhod at nag dasal. “Dios ko po, dios ko po. Hindi ko yata kaya. Tibayin nyo po ang puso ko. Amen.”

I replied to his text acting normal cos I didn’t want him to know that I was freaking out.

“Are the people there ok?” He said: “Yah.” “Are they black?” He said: “uhmmmm… yah.”

He was in Brazil for a month and he met some really nice people there. And he had fun. We constantly skyped and Whatsapp.

He sent us a picture with a caption: “mi chica Braziliana. hehehe”

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I prayed again. “please, please God ‘wag sana i uwi ni Vinny and chica na yan. Dios ko po. Maawa kayo sa akin.”

Then he went to Argentina. First thing I asked when he got there was: “How’s your hostel?” “It’s okay, Mom. I am rooming in with 2 French gilrs.”

I prayed again. “please, please God. maawa kayo sa akin. Please.”

I told Claudia: “can you tell your brother to buy some condoms.” Claudia freaked out and screamed: “I’m not telling him that. You tell him you’re the Mother.”

He also had fun in Argentina. He met new friends and they went around Argentina together.

Last week he was already in Bolivia. He texted me and told me that he won’t be able to text me for 4 days cos there is no signal in the places they’re going.

I prayed again. “Please God. Please lang.”

For 4 days I didn’t hear from him except 2 texts saying he was okay. I couldn’t breathe the whole time. Kung ano ano na nasa isip ko. I couldn’t sleep well at night.

Until today.

He was back in his hostel and he sent me a few messages. May bonus pa. He posted pictures in Facebook with a caption:

“Just came from a 4 day trip in southwest Bolivia from Tupiza to Uyuni. Lots of flamingos, llamas, rocks, cacti and salt. One of the best roadtrips of my life.”

And let me share to you some of the pictures: (click photos for better viewing)

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I shared this story with you:

first – becos it is a very nice feeling to know that your child is having the time of his life. Especially Vinny cos he deserves it. Have I told you that he is going to graduate this December with Merits in London School Of Economics major in Economics History?

second – when I let go of Vinny, I let God. I prayed and put him in the hands of God. I trusted.

And God indeed is a great God.

11 comments

  • Hahaha OMG I could not stop laughing! We were in the same boat a few months ago. My 21 year old daughter hitched hiked from scotland to Morocco with a girlfriend from school and it was for a cause but boy did i storm the good heavens. I prayed like i never did before! And really God is so good! They met the most wonderful people during their hitch and saw amazing places on their way. So yes, I know how you felt

    • vinny at one point hitch hiked cos the bus left him! I only found out after cos he didn’t want to tell me. Imagine the bus left him he was in the middle of nowhere no signal and alone. There are really good samaritans out there. He was able to hitched with wonderful people also who took him in even if they didn’t know him.

  • we mothers should always be reminded by Kahlil Gibran- “your children are not your children; they are the sons and daughters of life’s longing for itself…xx xx xx” pero ang hirap talaga…

  • I love, love, love posts such as this ms. T! ❤ I kept LOL-ing the whole time I was reading this post. You really have a knack for story telling. Happy to see Vinny enjoying his backpacking adventure.

  • It actually made me tear up. I’m not a mother but it made me appreciate the depth of a mother’s love. A really nice personal post. =)

  • I think this is the best mom line eveeerrr “please, please God ‘wag sana i uwi ni Vinny and chica na yan. Dios ko po. Maawa kayo sa akin.”

    • LOLed at that too! Ms. T, you brought him up so well, and Claudia for refusing to tell his kuya to buy protection. LOL!

  • Been lurking for quite some time but now I cant help not to comment 🙂 This is very moving Ms. Tina. I’m the youngest daughter and have moved abroad when I was 21. Your story tells me how my own mom feels every single day of her life. Cheesy as it may sound, but I’m sure mothers are the happiest when they see their child having the courage to spread their wings, live a life, and learn from it. My mom cries each time I go back home and whenever I board the plane; but deep inside I’m happy because I am who am I now because she let me go. More stories to come Ms. Tina! 🙂

  • hi ms tina!! thank you for sharing your thoughts and feelings here. you are doing such a great job on being a mom in this stage of their life. i can only imagine how hard it must be sometimes and how easy it would be to just try and control them, but I’m glad you put your faith and trust in God who will not fail you. I can only wish all parents would realize that.

  • Hi Ms. T! It’s been a while since I last commented in your posts. Hehe. I really admire your son for taking such a big leap (I’m reading his blog now, too!). I’m also a traveler but I haven’t tried going solo yet, it will be I’m always with somebody or staying with someone I know from the place. It’s really something. Give yourself not just some, but a lot of credit. Your son is who he is now because he has a mom like you. 🙂

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